update: today is the fourth, and i still don’t have nearly enough for my rent. this means that tomorrow late fees will start piling up. this normally wouldn’t be that big of a deal, because seriously what’s a month’s late rent. BUT i’ve had so many late months that my security deposit has been eaten away, and i’m afraid that soon the same is going to happen to my roommates’ deposits, because of me. which obviously is totally unfair, and would be yet another thing that i’ll have to repay.
okay i guess it’s time for another “wow i’m broke please help me out” post
most of my followers know essentially what’s going on, but i’ll outline it again here:
last year, i was suspended from school due to failure to perform academically. this was directly due to my issues with depression (it’s hard to focus on your grades when you’re just struggling to live), and it left me in a tough spot; it mean that my only real source of income (a work-study job) was no longer an option for me.
i moved back in with my parents for six or so months, but was unable to find a sublet, meaning that i still had to pay my rent. this ate up any money i had saved, including all of my money for transition. it also used up almost all of the money that i was owed by my mom, as she payed the last several months of my rent. every time i found a job while staying there, it fell through.
now she’s lost her main job, and i’m stuck in limbo while i wait to find out if my school will accept me back now that i’ve been on antidepressants for several months and have returned to a relatively stable state of mind.
i have about 40 dollars to my name, which was all my dad could spare when i returned to the city i go to school in. needless to say, my mom couldn’t spare anything. she was too busy trying to get together enough money to get our phones turned back on.
so that leaves me with a lot of things to pay for, and almost no money to do it with. i won’t get a refund check from my school until mid-january, and i still have to worry about:
- december’s rent & january’s rent, both of which are unpaid
- utility bills both from this year & the last, which i owe to my poor patient roommate
buying testosterone, which i’ve been out of for a weeknow i have enough money for T!!! but unfortunately that’s the only thing.
- money owed to a friend
- money to pay for a security deposit on a new apartment, since my contract on this on is up in may
- textbooks for when i go back to classes
i’m pretty well set on food, since i have a lot stored here, including cat food. but the rest is still pretty vital, and i have almost no resources left. which is why i’m asking tumblr for money again. (i’ve done this once before, and i’m incredibly grateful for the help i received then; it was the only reason i didn’t get kicked out of my apartment at the time)
i don’t like doing this, and i’m not just trying to be lazy by asking for money i haven’t earned. i didn’t waste all my money on anything frivolous (not that that would even have mattered, because poor people are allowed to have nice things too; anon i’m looking at you). i’m just going through a rougher time than usual, and could do with the help.
i don’t have much to offer in return, but sometime in the next week or so i’ll probably be putting up a post on the Transgender Clothing Exchange with some old clothes and jewelry and stuff. if you’re interested, there’s not much, but just let me know!
anyway, thanks so much, and if you can’t afford to donate (which obviously i understand lol) please reblog!!